It’s a rather strange moment when hindsight enables one to recognize something that he/she was blind to previously.
The last couple of months really have been (on average) probably two of the happiest months that I’ve had for a very long time.
Sure, I may be back to having sleeping problems again, but the lack of sleep has seen a bit more lucidity in my thought processes. Being around large groups of people still scares the absolute crap out of me (in one sense before I eventually put on a persona) but the solitude and being alone doesn’t sadden me as much as it used to. Being away from other places has helped too.
Maybe this is just another temporary phase before I plunge back deep into the ocean of melancholy and sadness later on this year. Maybe it won’t be. Only God knows. All I know is that I’m going to enjoy the ride while it lasts and I’m on this train.
Time for a celebratory drink I think. Svedka sounds good to me. Skål!